Upgrading from Idealist to Realist

There’s nothing like traveling the world.

It was inevitable I’d have a different view of things now that I’m back in Colorado. After such a great adventure, I had the extreme sense that I COULD do anything and be anyone! I followed my heart and moved to the mountains to become a hippie. I fit in up here a lot better—much less pressure to be so damn “Denver-Cool.”

There’s nothing like following your dream.

Only problem is I caught myself crying on the couch over a box of cookies watching Project Runway. Remember when we used to watch it all together? That was the fuckin’ shit!

Sorry I was never a very good friend. Sorry I was always so selfish. Sorry I never knew what to say when you needed someone to say something. I wish I had a take-back. Now its too late, and I don’t have any friends.

Or love.

It took me two hours to make a profile on match.com only to realize that guys don’t look for girls like me on match.com! Besides it’s kind of hard to write in words “I want to sleep with you,” without actually saying it or using any sort of body language. I like the use of body language.

In conclusion, starting over isn’t all its cracked up to be. But I guess it’s better than being stuck in a rut? Hopefully in a week or two I’ll write about how I’m livin’ the dream.

P.S. – I sold my scooter to Geno to help start my practice.

Working on a cruise ship...

Working on a cruise ship is like groundhog day. Every 12 days is new start.

My home is the sea.

I’ve left Colorado to go and seek my fortune.

When I return, I’ll buy my dad a house and fill it full of those colorful balls from the McDonald’s playland so he won’t hurt himself.

I’ll keep in touch if you do. It’s quite lonely out here on the high seas.

Let's talk about the weather

Some people think its science. Some think its God. These words are starting to mean the same thing to me. But I’m still asking why?

Hopefully one day I won’t have to ask why?

I’ll just know.

such a life!

valleys, hills, mountains, plateaus, rocky trails, smooth trails, no trails, sunshine, clouds, wind, wide open...

good morning

It is noon on Sunday.

The Challenger exploded 22 years ago.


When my mom was pregnant with me, she fell off a snowmobile and couldn't feel me kick for two days.


God's been missing for quite some time, but the Chaos Theory gives me comfort.


I was suposed to be born on Valentine's day, but I was two weeks early. I've never been able to show up on time for love.

Top ten list: what I would do with an extra $1000

10 – have my left breast augmented
9 – pay back my mom for all the times she’s lent me $20
8 – two months rent
7 – save it for a rainy day
6 – donate it to charity
5 – take all my friends out for sushi and sake and lap dances
4 – my very own turn tables
3 – new pair of skies
2 – give it to Willy to buy snowmobile parts
1 – Buy a plane ticket to China

The bank gave me an extra $1000 today at noon. About 3 hours later, I went back and pointed out the mistake. I am sure that God/ Jesus/ Buddha/ Natural Selection/ the Tao/ the universe are all very proud of my honesty. At least Erick at Wells Fargo will still have a job tomorrow. Grab that cash with both hands and make a stash.